Wednesday, June 30, 2004
slow to anger..
walau..i ver angry now..i seldom use vulgarities one lor..dunno which idiot go n take almost all the coins in my wallet..its abt afew dollars lor..u may tink tt its juz a few dollars..nvm lah..but its still money..u noe those pple in developing countries..they dun even haf so much lor..n those money can feed them fer almost a mth..it can feed mi fer a wk one lor..ver wad lehz..its not his/her money lor..dun they noe how hard our parents work to be able to gif us those money..oh..i forgot..she dun work..if she does she will be able to understand..n she will not steal..ver wad lor..if she ask from mi..mebbe i'll lend it to her or smt..if she realli needs the money..wad's the point of stealing?..very fun izzit..tis is nt the firx time our klaz haf tis kind of tink liao lor..
anw..thx Lord fer everytink..i'm not tt angry until my whole mind go crazy..Love is slow to anger..tt phrase kept repeating in my head..ya..i shld love my klazmates..but at the same time..i can't let tis tink go off juz lyk tt..money is involve..n TIS KIND OF CRIME SHLD STOP!!i can't let tis continue..i'm going to tell the teacher tml..
Posted by phyllis at 6/30/2004 05:49:00 PM
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
lala~
hmm..sch reopens le..so sian..tis term work gonna be tough n tight..lotsa performace cuming on the way n cl2 oral n listening cuming le..ver stress..last nite do hwk until 230..den sleep at 3..wake up at 6..qiang rite..i day slp 3hrs onli..hahax..gd tt today's nt ver boring..lotsa discussion..if not i sure doze off..today we played the songs we are going to perform soon fer the whole co..sound so erxin..i tink becoz..diff pple haf diff speed..den cannot cooridnate well..den kenna suan by princpal teacher n conductor..they dun tell u straight..they use a nicer way to shoot us..so evil..gd tink we are smart..if not still blur blur..hahax..
yest we changed our seats again..so we can help each other in same ways.i wonder y everytime i got to sit wif pple tt can get emotional ver easily..ver scary u noe..den they will do smt tt will hurt themselves to relieve their pain..dun understand y they would tot of doing tt..i tink it's rather gross n cruel..hmm..last term i sat wif another gal of the same type..now we are gd frienz le..n i tink she quit tt habit le ba..i dunno..hahax..but i believe..God has his plans..there muz be a reason y i was asked to sit wif her..though i dunno wad to do..but i'll hold on to Him..fer He will guide mi thru
Posted by phyllis at 6/29/2004 06:55:00 PM
Saturday, June 26, 2004
...
dun feel lyk writing..feel ver bu shuang now..my bad languages are cuming up..boiling in my head..dun ask y..its not abt the Go Wild tink..juz sum emotional problems..dun disturb mi!
Posted by phyllis at 6/26/2004 09:04:00 PM
Friday, June 25, 2004
so cute!!
Posted by phyllis at 6/25/2004 11:04:00 PM
time fer a break..
argh..having headache..i beta finish tis entry quick..den can go slp le..hehe..
tis morning..my alarm clock rang at 230..becoz sumone asked mi to wake him up..all becoz he wanna watch soccer..the person noe who he is..den end up i can't slp..den tis morning woke up at 9..quickly finish up my hwk..but still cannot finish..dunno how..den when i online at 12 plus..tt person onlines too..he watch until 6..woke up at 10..haiz..sick pple still slp so little..anw..he sick not my business..hehe
realise tt i kept using 'tt person'..sounds quite evil..but nvm..haha..juz now i went to help my mum..saw tt cat again..it walk past mi..without even saying 'hi'..no manners..hahax..it's buzi hunting fer food i tink..hmm..after tt i dun c him around animore..go home le ba..hahax..but i saw quite afew dogs..ver cute..u noe how crazy i m when i dogs..hahax..jk..but they r reali cute..
hmm..looking fer to tml..coz it's GO WILD!!..hahax..my team is rather strong sia..n vonne's friend joining us..gonna be fun..win or lose doesn't matter..as long as we enjoy..but i believe we will win smt back de..muahahax..dun play play wor..=P
Posted by phyllis at 6/25/2004 10:39:00 PM
Thursday, June 24, 2004
day of j21..
today got j21..i din know abt it..until last nite..when john told mi..hmm..wanna go last yr..but my mum dun allow..den i forgot abt it tis yr..hmm..anw..i tink i wun be able to go anw..coz i still got tonnes of hwk..i'm left wif 1 day..sian diao..but gd tink i did quite alot today..hehe..
tis morning i went fer detention..i was late by2 mins..actualli i tot i'll be late fer lyk abt half an hr..coz i left home at around 940..den i missed my bus summore..but when i reach there..fungmin wasn't around..i tot she will reach in half an hrs time..but she din turned up..while waiting..i went to the canteen to do hwk wif siqi..i went to check if she's here every half an hr..when i went there again at around 1130..jackson n weikiang had alreadi packed up the whole co rm..den dun haf to do anitink..hehe..anw fungmin din cum..pearlyn inspect..hahax..den i help her inspect summore..i open up all the cupboard n check if there is anitink i can do..but nope..all done...so shiok sia..wahahax..
juz now played wheel of fortunate wif jon..i was winning at firx..den the nxt 2 round i din even win a single game..argh..nvm..gtg play again le..cya!
Posted by phyllis at 6/24/2004 08:40:00 PM
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
2 more days left..
hmm..tis morning i skip sch..coz i overslept..actualli i woke up at 630..den i c..still early..den continue to slp..when i woke up its alreadi 9 lehz..lesson start le..if i go at tt time the lesson will end when i reach man..hahax..so i decided to stay at home..hehe
today's qt msg was great..as sum of u all noe..my mum injured her hand..as i was praying fer her..i wondered y God let tis happen..but He told mi to gif thx..i'm thankful tt she onli injured half of her limb..not the whole thing..tinks may not seems as bad when u tink abt it in a positive way..
hmm..tml gtg sch clean co rm..as detention..dunno y she wan to chose tml..its the best day fer my hwk lor..sian diao..summore so early..hmm..wad if i were late..wad will happen ar?hahax..hmm..2 more days to go...forgot tis sat got go wild..hehe..btw thx siqi..
k lah..hafta go do hwk le..=P
Posted by phyllis at 6/23/2004 10:45:00 PM
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
long day..
today nv touch hwk..die liao..i'm left wif 4 days..how?hahax..
went co today..not many pple there..they all sae go overseas..i tink onli kelly n amy ba..the rest sure pon one...but y these pple nv get caught one..so unfair..tt day i abit siao one..told fungmin tt time going to pon..den she realli believe..din even ask mi fer a reason y i din go..if she ask..mebbe i can still produce a letter from parent..stupid lah!..now hafta serve detention..regret telling her tt..i tis wk ver buzi one lehz..den she wans it to be carried out tis week..wad the..sum pple alwas pon alwas late but nv get caught..argh!!
juz now went my mum 's stall to help out..coz she not feeling well since tis morning..den when there's nth to do..i sat at the table..den i saw tis ver cute cat..i observed its every movement..den when it finalli settled down it realised tt i'm all the way looking at it..so it decided to play the staring game wif mi...so funnie...imagine u are playing tis kind of game wif a cat..wahahax..actualli there is possibility tt i might win..but suddenly john's msg came..den i got distracted..den the cat won mi..imagined u are beaten by at cat!!..how can tis be?!?!?..hahax..n tt cat ver proud sia..when i took out my phone..it still continue to stare at mi..den looked away..as if he is the winner..though it realli it..stupid cat..hahax..but its quite cute..animals are so loving..=P..gtg slp le..nitezzzzzz!
Posted by phyllis at 6/22/2004 10:31:00 PM
Monday, June 21, 2004
buzi + stress=??
today is a buzi day fer mi..my schedule was quite tite..morning after qt..i practise erhu..if kenna scold again..den i jump rite into hwk...do until 3++..den lunch..den online fer awhile..den started ironing clothes..fer 2 hrs..n here i m to type my diary again..hehe..ver tiring..
juz now when i was hanging clothes..the bamboo drop down..firx time in my hist sia..so scary..gd tink i held on to it..if not the impact will be greater..den the bamboo ver sticky..my hand is full of a kind of black substance..ver disgusting..
2d'04 tt bunch of kidz is realli bo liao man..they used jiajun's acc to xiang wo biao bai..when they sae hi i alreadi suspect smt le.."hi dear"..jj nv sae tt to mi..from the dear..i can smell smt fishy le..den they asked mi if i wan to stead wif him n marry him..dotz..can't believe it..they r realli inmature..nth better to do..lucky i smell smt fishy in the firx place..hahax..
hmm..today ver tired ar..brain dying..tink too much maths le..hahax..gtg..haven eat dinner..;P
Posted by phyllis at 6/21/2004 11:17:00 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Rejoice in the Lord..!!!
Praise the Lord..today's pnw was great man..long time nv c the youth jump le..mebbe becoz they juz return from retreat..den their passion fer Jesus is still high ba..but wadeva the case..its gd to rejoice in the lord..juz now's cell they shared tt they sumtink abt pnw..so gd..how i wish i were there..n the sermon is so influencial..God is doing great work in these young pple..hmm..sound lyk a old woman..but nvm..hahax..
i heard tt the spa there is M18 one..y so weird..i tot spa is fer everyone..hahax..but the guys managed to sneak in oso mah..hahax..sounded to fun..
i tink today's cell is rather diff..we no longer sit at our usual place..dunno y..everytime we got cell we alwas sit the same old place one..hahax..lyk fixed lyk tt..den lotsa of sharing oso..so nice..
today vonne abit hyper..can't stop toking..hahax..she can't even keep still fer a moment..hahax..den her jokes all not funnie one..onli she laughing..hahax..k..enough of teasing..later i scolded by her..wahahax..
sunday is so great..its God's day..no worries..hahax..so nice..
-end-
Posted by phyllis at 6/20/2004 08:43:00 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
it hurts..
tis wk is full of injuries..
firstly i knock my head against the metal bar of my bro's head..dunno if my skull got crack anot..its still ver pain when i touches it..
nxt is my neck...dunno izzit becoz i din slp well or wad..i feel so uneasy..i tink the veins overlapped..i can feel tears cuming to my eyes when i twist my neck..
third is my toe..ver weird lor..dunno y i will trip..din fall yet hurt myself..dun understand..big hole sia..go read previous to noe abt tis wound..
++i'm still suffering from backache..those tt i've told will noe tt there's smt wrong wif my backbone..
i face sum emotional problems too..heart cracking le..hahax..
n juz now i keep feeling tt sumone has enter the rm..but there's no one..
weird sia..God..help mi get rid of those evil spirit n wadeva tt doesn't tao shen xi yue de..
frienz..i need prayer man..
Posted by phyllis at 6/19/2004 11:33:00 PM
i'll try harder..
tis morning the sec3s got scolded by the conductor..coz on the 0707..we got solo piece..den we haven master the songs yet..++my friend n i din bring the scores..i tot i got bring but i din..i got bring other scores..so sad..den my friend is the whole file oso nv bring..got scolded until dunno lyk wad..but i tink my friend is in the wrong oso..nt sae tt i'm not wrong..but i tink she changed alot since the sec4s haf left..or izzit tt i've changed?..i dunno..she tends to be more proud..everytime lyk wan to pon co..break all the sch rules tt she can..she's a sc lehz..muz set gd example mah..aiya..i tink she becum ver rebellious..hmm..i noe i shldn't judge the others..but..haiya..nvm..
den when we were asked to play the songs..i was so surprised tt i'm the one tt memorize the most..even the better ones din memorize..the trc kept repeating tt we muz memorize..aiya..dun understand..wad i noe is tt we muz work harder..dun understand y pple lyk to be so anti..haiz..
comparing our standard wif the seniors..its far too apart..n i tink the rvco is going to close down soon..last time we were so cooperative..one section will start playing together..den the whole co will add in..its ver united lor..no conductor oso can..coz to them music is so fun..now we can't even haf the whole section to play tgt..everyone cares onli abt themselves...onli the poor souls of us does tt..so..i decided to ask all the sec3s to help..to build up rvco..we are seniors now..cannot play play le...if we dun work..nobody will..we muz go back to the jinyang's century..if not our gold will be gone..
hmm..new info shall be updated later..hee
Posted by phyllis at 6/19/2004 06:44:00 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
pain lehz..
tis afternoon i went to help my mum..on my way there..i trip over the step of the overhead bridge..i injured my toes..my firx toe got cut n bleed..ver painful lehz..now still pain..den i quickly walk to the stall..on my way there i went past a car factory..they were playing hillsongs..so loud lor..i can't remember wad song..but praise the Lord man..tis kind of place still haf pple play hillsong..when i reach there..i quickly go n wash the wound..there's a big hole on my toes..no wonder kept bleeding..
evening when i was buzy helping out..coz peak hours..wenhao suddenly msg mi.."wo hui lai le"..the way he phrase tt he has return is so funnie..lyk japanese..hahax..but when i receive tt msg i was happy..vonne oso..mebbe becoz we were missing the youth too much le..
when i reach home i called yvonne..she ver funnie one lehz..10 plus den eat dinner..when i call her she sae she wanna go study..y her schedule all lyk push back de..hahax..anw its fun toking to her..juz now i tuned to 92.4fm..long time ver listen to classical music le..suddenly feel tt i understand music more le..its so nice..so relaxing..i almost fell aslp while listening..hahax..but becoz its boring..but becoz its so mind-easing..hahax..so all muz learn to listen to such music..dun alwas listen to worldly music..not so gd sia..hahax..k lah...hafta end here..my toe is still painful..hahax..nitez
Posted by phyllis at 6/18/2004 11:59:00 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
not wasted
finalli i'm done wif my blog..i took mi almost 2 wks to solve the mystery..now my blog is much nicer liao..all thx to afew pple who've haf these days..my bro, miss duck,mr john..den of coz God..thanks..
today is another day tt i've not touch my hwk..hols is left wif so little days onli..how?there's still tons of them..hmm..i shall work harder..bsides i still hafta help my mum wif her stall..my hols is so buzi..hmm..today keep missing pple..wondering wad the youth are doing there..yvonne told mi tt there is a river there..how i wish i can be there catching fish..j/k..hahax..dunno if they were missing us..
tis morning when i woke up..my neck's aching..i tot it'll be ok soon..becoz mebbe last nite din sleep well..but till now..the pain is still there..so i hope u guys will pray fer my neck..=)..hmm..tt's abt all..hafta work on my hwk liao..cya!!
Posted by phyllis at 6/17/2004 05:40:00 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
today..
haiz..today is the 3rd day those peepz haf left fer the retreat..dunno wad r they doing now..the pple here in singapore are miss them all the time..i was wondering if they were missing us too..they muz be having fun there..i heard tt it was a ver nice place wif shopping centers inside the resort..dunno true anot..but i believe it'll be fun..esp when God is around..hehe
these 2 days i've chatting wif jane n yvonne on the phone..we tok abt lotsa tinks..esp how we spent our childhood..mine is one tt u will nv expect..i did lotsa silly tinks..but still tink its fun..after all not many pple will haf tt kind of wonderful childhood days..
i feel so buzi tis hols..everyday hafta go sch..anw i skip today..hehe..long time nv done so le..haiz..still got lotsa hwk haven do..n i'm left half of the hols onli..how?
anw i tink tis blogging system abit weird one..u will understand when u look at my blog..its a mess..anw..i'll try to make it look nicer..hmm...peepz..if u noe wad's wrong wif it..do gimme sum tips k?thx..
Posted by phyllis at 6/16/2004 10:10:00 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2004
wad the..
my blog is so ugly..dun feel lyk working on it le..today is great..God is the best..i love church ver much..its a place tt i find joy..i'll nv get lonely..coz god is alwas there..
juz now was so diu lian..i took wrong bus twice..i got on 145 den realise wrong bus..so i went back the busstop i took..my frienz were still there..gd tink they nv c mi..hahax..den i took 51..in the wrong direction..i take until chinatown lor..sian diao..i feel lyk crying lor..such a short dist n yet it took mi so long..my stomach is calling fer food..haven eaten since morning..den finalli my dad ask mi to take taxi..it cost mi $5 lor..haiz..
when i reach there...i took 3 bowls of rice..so hungry..k lah..tml got sch..continue nxt time..
wondering where i go?wahahahx
Posted by phyllis at 6/13/2004 11:22:00 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2004
mosquito craze...
hey hey..i'm back from chalet..3 days juz went off lyk the shooting stars tt dashed across the sky..
tis 3 days is rather a sian one..coz the chalet's location ver ulu..den go out oso no use..onli c aeroplanes..on the firx day..i was ver excited..the place is ver big n nice..it's a shi wai tao yuan..go swimming pool, bowling alley, bball courts, tennis courts, tabletennis, everytink tt u can tink of..ver cool lor..but..we onli brought bballs soccer..din realli bring much stuff..so i spent most of my time playing mahjong..i tink im addicted liao..cant stop tinking of it..second nite play until ver late..but i tink it will be gone soon..tis 3 days i saw lotsa tinks..a huge spider..realli big..a real kingfisher..ver chio..the sun rising..firx time in my life..onli c sunset b4..n most amount of stars..actualli wanna climb to roof top to c one..but too tired..God is realli wonderful..He created the most beautiful tinks on earth..
when i return yest..my legs start to itch..i got lyk around 20 mosquito bites..though its not my highest record..i got 1 time 50 plus i tink..but its realli itchy..i shld haf kill those bugs..hahax..
Mmm..later going concert..dun feel lyk going lehz..but no choice buy ticket liao..dunno y they lyk to put it compusary all the time..sian diao..haiz.go prepare le..bye!
Posted by phyllis at 6/12/2004 10:13:00 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
yes!
yay..finalli the tests over..2hrs ago..i was still worrying abt it..but now..im so happy..i did pretty ok..gd tink the sec2s were not around..if not i wun be able to get back the reesults so quickly..i dun lyk the sec2s..they are so arrogant..besides..they dun play well either..everyday play..slack..alwas cause us into trouble..coz they alws dun play well..den the conductor will scold us..coz we din teach them well..now the sec1s are going to join us soon..it shld be quite pressurized..even im stress coz they are realli gd..they learn ver fast..but the sec2s still duno the seriousness..haiz..dunno wad to sae..
anw..today ver happy..coz tml going chalet..hehe..long time nv gather as a klaz le..(sec2 klaz chalet)..unfornately sum of them can't go..i'm looking fwd tml..hehe..it'll be fun..coz i'm not ver close wif my sec3 klaz..haiz..dun lyk them..they lyk to backstab pple..so these few days i wun be able to post ani entry..whoever tt reads the blog muz miss mi..hehe..=P
Posted by phyllis at 6/08/2004 06:36:00 PM
scare..
today mebbe the test fer syf..tt day i got the false alarm..tot the test was on sat..den i was so scare..in the end dun haf..yest i got the msg tt today might haf..i'm now ver scare..the exam is juz 2 hrs away from mi..wad shld i do..i dunno..juz submit myself to God..
Posted by phyllis at 6/08/2004 12:29:00 PM
Nobody Knows?
" But if i go to the east, He is not there; if i go to the west, i do not find Him. When He is at work in the north, i do not see Him; when He turns to the south, i catch no glimpse of Him. But He knows the way that i take; when He has tested me, i will come forth as gold." --Job 23:8-10
tis is wad God told mi tis morning..actualli tis shld be fer yest..but i was too tired yest..so drag..i sensed smt's wrong last nite..i made my own assumptions n i was troubled..i dun understand why God does so..i was tinking of tt as i woke up tis morning..as i prayed..i commit the problem to God..n tt is wad He told mi..
today's material tok abt tis person..he realise tt he had leukemia n needed bone marrow transplant..there onli 20% chance of surviving..in the hospital..he was alone..depressed n lonely..Jus like Job he search fer some mightly work or word from God to give him hope.But God had another plan fer him..he did not send trumpets and angels with glorious signs and miracles..
" Know that the testing of your faith develops persevenace" James1:3..i believe tt bad news doesn't alwas meant bad..it may juz be a form of test of faith..it will help to shape us into a better person..in the process of moulding a pot..it will be painful..but the overcome is a beautiful pot..from a pile of clay into a pot..isn't it wonderful?..it reminded mi of the story of God asking Abraham to offer up his son..
God knows all about our deepest problems..He will nv forsake us..
*reference from "our daily Journey"
Posted by phyllis at 6/08/2004 12:03:00 PM
Monday, June 07, 2004
nOt lOvE..
after months of struggle
i juz realise tt it wasn't love
neither izzit crush
its juz friendship
he is onli a good friend to mi
one tt listens n talks to mi
one tt i can share my tots n feelings
my heartbeats doesn't increase when i c him
but onli a sense of relieve
i tot it was love
but i was wrong
he is juz a close friend of mine..
*unbelievance will turn facts untrue...
Posted by phyllis at 6/07/2004 05:35:00 PM
Sunday, June 06, 2004
sad
i dunno wad happen to mi today...during the last part of the service..when we sing tt song..i forgot wad song le..tears suddenly flow out of my eyes..i dunno wad happen..i dun understand..i juz feel ver sad..when the service was over..i sat at my seat tearing tissue..i was undergoing a kind of depression tt i din wad it was..
then chai prayed fer mi..to c if i shld go the 'go wild'tinky..as she prayed..tears flow out again..haiz..realli dun understand..afraid tt others will worry abt mi..i quickly dry my tear n smile..so they will not suspect anitink..
den i went jp wif them..abit regret going..coz i go jp until sian liao..n i can't stay long..so there..sit down..look at them eat..den i tink i go abit crazy..i almost tok my duck fer a walk..haiz..
when i reach home i called yvonne..she told mi alot..which i shall not reveal..den i read my bk till abt 2
Posted by phyllis at 6/06/2004 05:42:00 PM
Saturday, June 05, 2004
festival of praise
festival of priase
today's fop was great..it was the firx time i worship fer so long..n is the kind of total focus one..we jumped n praise Him wif all our might n soul..i could feel His presence..it was so overwelming..
after the praise n worship..i went out to pray..as the pastor pray..i could gusts of air hitting my hair..i wonder is tt God or is tt the person behind..i dunno..
ohya..before the fop start..mi n vonne were scanning around fer cute guys..den we saw tis guy slping..he look realli lyk ah hao..(when he slps lah)..but he woke up..we realise tt he looks realli ugly..heng we din ask him fer his no..hehe..
Posted by phyllis at 6/05/2004 11:59:00 AM
Friday, June 04, 2004
last min work..
oh no!..tml is the test fer syf le..anione who is choosen will enter the syf competition nxt april..i can't lose tis chance..i'va alreadi miss once when i was in sec1..if i dun get in tis time den i wun be able to get my 3 bonus points fer my cca le..den it will be hard fer mi to enter jc..all my hardwork fer these year will go to waste..so i muz work hard the enter..
but i'm nervous n scared..i'm still not ver gd at the piece..how?..i've been practising since tis morning..i tink tml will i go sch my hand will start aching..tis is wad i call last min work..all i can do is to practise..n hand the issue to God le..hmm..hope i can get in tml..
Posted by phyllis at 6/04/2004 04:14:00 PM
Thursday, June 03, 2004
alone at Home..
i'm so dumb tis morning..i went sch n tot there is remedial..but there isn't..i even msg my teacher to ask fer the venue..but she din reply..den no choice i hafta go home..everybody is going in the direction of the sch but i'm going home..so weird..but tis morning is quite cooling..reach home actualli wanna do phys tys one..but end up editing tis blog..gtg fer hwk le..
Posted by phyllis at 6/03/2004 12:09:00 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
firx entry
tis is my firx entry..juz trying out..=)..hope u guys can gif mi sum comments on improvement..thx