Sunday, June 05, 2005


haiz..i wonder y i juz can't get off from my old self..i tried ver ver hard..but it juz kept cuming back..its is unhealthy..i'm getting irritated..y does God wan to create mi in this way!..wad's His purpose in mi..i'm damn frustrated inside mi ..i dun care wad words i use le..i'm slaming my keyboard hard!..i dun c are if i've to get a new one..y it izzit lyk tt..y can't i haf more confident in myself ..when i do so i'll get ver arrogant..wad do u wan mi to be God?..i realli dunno howta balance myself..i'm all muddled up..haiz..y do u wan to rise mi up so quickly?..can't i learn to grow in other ways?..i'm so stressful..pple look up at mi as a leader..yet i din set a gd example..i tried but fail..tried again and again until i got tired so frustrated in myself tt i almost gav up..but i noe God u dun wan mi to ..u wan to mould mi..n i shall allow to do so..but u hafta show mi howta get up when i fall?..i can't find the way up myself..i need u to be my light..haiz..

-->i need counselling<--=(

Posted by phyllis at 6/05/2005 09:19:00 PM